Bumble B's Arrival Part One

It's 6:53 pm. I opened this page to write this post at 8:53 am. That's how it's been! And now it's 7:49....

Anyways! I think where I left off I was waiting for midnight Thursday for the fFN and cervical check. No changes, negative fFn! But then I was given terbutaline and it made me so so sick. I finally got to sleep around 4, and around 7 or 8 the doctor came in. She said my contractions were lasting for 3 minutes and the baby's heartbeat was decreasing every time.

She suggested a c section that morning. She asked me what I thought and I had no idea. I looked at my mom and said "What do I think?!" The doctor then said she wasn't really giving me a choice. So I said okey dokey! I wanted to do what was best obviously, but it was such a huge shock. Then I immediately started crying and crying because I knew he was going to be early. I knew he'd be fine but he might have to go downtown to the NICU, or even just be in the Level 2 nursery in this hospital for weeks. I knew I wouldn't get to hold him for a while and I became hysterical.

Then it all started. Cathetor in, anesthesiologist in, paperwork signed, kisses and hugs given, and escorted into the OR. Not only was I not ready to have a baby yet, I was about to have a C Section. A needle in my back and major surgery. The cathetor hurt so so so bad. I got my pidural which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I couldn't imagine getting it during labor and contractions though! They laid me down, did more stuff, and then I couldn't feel anything. I was so stressed and a bit panicky.

It was the most surreal experience I have ever been through. It was so so weird. I could feel them touching me and moving stuff, I just couldn't hear pain. Christopher was there and I think he was as shocked and as taken aback as I. Then they were talking about the baby. He was really really low, and I told them that I wish I had a dollar for every time someone told me that. Normally during a Csection they have to push the baby down and out. They had a hard time reaching in and getting him UP. He was engaged in my pelvis. They finally got him up and pushed him down and out. Then all I heard was crying. He started screeching the second he came out.

I have never in my life heard something so beautiful in my entire life. My little tiny 34 weeker was screaming immediately after being born. They lowered the sheet for me and I saw him. He was crying and purple, and that's all I remember from that. I was of course bawling crying. It was one of the happiest moments of my life.

After a minute they took Christopher over to the table where they were cleaning him up and he stood with them for a long time and saw the baby. Then I started to have my own little panic attack. C Section is scry, especially when you are totally taken by surprise and haven't had a chance to totally research and prepare. So if you're preggo, read up on it.

But then! There was the most beautiful face I had ever seen in my life. Pink and fat. Just peeking out of a hat and burrito of a banket. There was my baby. MY BABY. LOOKING at me! I said hello to him and gave him a kiss, and he was whisked away to the nursery.

His stats came back 4lbs, 10ozs, and 18 1/2 inches long. He's absolutely perfect.

Now it is 12:15 am. This post has taken me 16 hours. I will continue tomorrow!

Here is his picture of the day ;)