Baby Steps

Bumble B and I are making baby steps.

A has gotten over his lazy feedings and is now eating between 50-70ccs a feeding (2 ounces is 60ccs)! He is so alert in the morning feeding (8am) and it's so cute to see the sweet funny faces he makes. It's nice that he's on such a great schedule. Once he gets bigger and healthier I probably won't be so lucky, but he's pretty predictable now. He always poops in the middle of a feeding, so he gets two diaper changes. One before and one during/after. The milk fortifier that is adding calories to the pumped breastmilk makes his poop stink though. Yuck! I'll be glad when it's just plan breastmilk again!

Yesterday A and my favorite nurse took care of him. She and the neonatologist said I could hold A as long as he was in his little bundle and up against me. He had 2 hats on, his pajamas, a long sleeve shirt under the pjs, blanket, and then snuggled with me under my fleece jacket. It was absolute bliss. I was the happiest girl on the face of the earth!

A lot of people have been telling me I needed to leave the hospital and do something. So Christopher and I went to Target. On the way out he said "Well I hope you don't burst into flames. He opened the door to the Jeep and said "Now this is an AU-TO-MO-BILE." When he turned on the radio he said "Now this is a radio. There are NOT more people in the car." Hehehe he makes me laugh!

I was good for a little while. Then halfway through Target I felt just completely and utterly depressed and DONE. I was ready to go back. We stopped to get chinese. Once we got back to the room I felt a little better. We ate and I went to my little man. That was not fun. I did it, and I won't again. I'm not leaving this parking lot without my baby again, at least not for longer than a couple minutes. It's so unnatural and was just really hard.

On a may be down note, A only gained 10 grams yesterday. He's gained 10, 40, 40, and then 10 again. I guess he was keeping himself warm a little while I was holding him. So it looks like the isolette treatment today. I told his nurse that I understand he needs to be in the isolette today, but I will hold him after his feedings until he falls asleep. Anyone that knows A knows that he only eats and sleeps. He falls asleep within 20 minutes of eating. I feel like I am abandoning him when I put him in the isolette still awake and I'm not holding him. I don't think that's too much to ask for, and so I made that clear this morning and his nurse seems fine with it.

Although he didn't gain much weight, he did keep his temp up. Plus when he was in the isolette, his temperature was in the 99s instead of the 98s. So he's maintaining his temp a little better and still gaining a little weight. I think that is a good baby step forward. I am looking forward to talking to the neonatologist today and talk to him about that and see if he agrees or if I'm being TOO optimistic...

I have something even BETTER than a dailt A pic. I have a VIDEO! Lucky duck ;) You'll probably figure out his name as well if you're smart enough lol