Jinx!

My skinny baby does not love to eat.

A would not eat at all today. We had to force feed him every time. His 5 oclock feeding he spit up a lot of and his 8 oclock feeding was a joke. He drank like half and the nurse had to force feed him. He's just sleeping through it. He doesn't want to wake up.

They have added a milk fortifier to his milk. It has 100 calories, which doesn't sound like much, but just imagine a 4 pound baby eating 100 extra calories! LOL. Hopefully that will help too.

It's been a GREAT day on the pumping front though. I'm pumping more and more milk and the time (pain, comfort) between sessions is becoming manageable. I'm making about 3 times more than he eats and I had to send 66 ounces home with my mom to freeze today because I filled up the nursery freezer!

I've heard that the NICU can be a rollercoaster. The neonatologist and some nurses told me things can go great and great and then one day it doesn't and it all changes. I was hoping this wouldn't happen. I was hoping we would be able to go home this weekend, but now we've been pushed back at least a day because today was so unproductive and if he lost more weight than we've gone back even more. He gained 10 grams yesterday, but I don't know how today will turn out.

I'm getting frustrated and trying so hard not to get upset when I do have A. I don't want to take the time we have together for granted. It's really hard to be down there and only be able to hold him long enough to feed him and be upset the whole time. Then I DO feel guilty because that IS my fault.

Anyways, thanks everyone for the continued support and prayers. They mean a lot to me. Knowing so many people love A is so so so special to me and really makes me feel so happy. I'm going to go down to the nursery in a bit to try another feeding and see what his new weight is.

Daily Bumble B, Saying Good Morning! He smiles when he sees me. I love it.